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Oct. 21st, 2007 | 03:25 am

can anybody tell me why god wont speak to me...


or why jesus never called on me to part the fucking seas?

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edit the sad parts

Oct. 16th, 2007 | 08:12 pm

 im not entirely sure that i want to grow up. i was sick of being stuck up in small town drama. i think this is affecting me in different ways, some negatively and some positively. i should list the ways..i really should, and count them. 1)become more responsible 2)more time to think about what the heck i'll do with my life ...you know, the negatives out weigh the positives so i wont even list them. today i feel rather down. id like to go somewhere super far away. id like to see the west coast. there was so many things i wanted to do, and im stuck now. europe, japan, russia. just to name a few. not really japan, ive come to dislike asian people over the past couple years. i know im being way too judgemental; but most asians are perverted. gosh, i could go on for hours about asians but i dont have anything nice to say, so ill keep those nasty things to myself. i feel bad for thinking bad things about asians, i guess im being prejudiced but its not like i think theyre gross or anything, i just really dont agree with their ideas or their culture or the way they look. damn, i feel bad, id better just stop talking before i get reported to the asain rights society or something. im judging people way too damn hard, im taking my point of views way too far, which i dont have any right to do, im being rather hipocritical. and i think im finally realizing exactly who i am and how crappy of a person i am. i dont have any morals, any beliefs or anything...except when it comes to other people. i should practice what i preach right? well, lets just say i aint nothin but a hound dog, and youre a floppy eared bunny. i will eat you from the inside out, like a bad disease, im hazardous to your health, and mine. lets steer clear of each other, because im pretty hazardous to myself as well. im like...someone left in a cage to die with nothing to eat or drink, i eat myself from the outside in. you know the best part? id critique myself through every inch of it. i dont let much get to me anymore, i try not to anyway but i feel bad today, today is like one of those long summer days where all of your friends are gone and youre so incredibly bored you dont even want to do anything, much less get up out of bed. but today is the end of the day, at least its not day light, and winter is approaching. i can wait it out, im fairly decent at waiting. remember before i talked to you?

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Oct. 14th, 2007 | 01:26 pm

 im not entirely certain why everyone likes florida, or thinks of it as such an exotic or foreign place. because fankly, its just a tourist state. i mean sure, theres some places that are nothing short of amazing and the coastlines in the heat of summer are pretty splendid but the people are what make this place suck. its full of old people, its the state you go to, to die. its hard to grow up in a state thats notorious for dying people....you see my conflict? plus its so damn hot here, too hot to even think sometimes, opressive really.

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Sep. 28th, 2007 | 10:51 pm

 
my days grow longer
everyday

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Sep. 6th, 2007 | 10:14 pm

what is normal in the moonlight; by the mornin' seems insane.

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Jun. 30th, 2007 | 08:46 pm

im putting it down

--this train is bound for glory

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Apr. 13th, 2007 | 02:38 pm

kurt vonnegut died. 
this sucks.

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Feb. 2nd, 2007 | 12:42 am

well jesus fucking christ.
life is a god damn bitch.

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in my best clothes

Jan. 5th, 2007 | 01:03 am

right now i am totally into this song from the donnie darko soundtrack.
weird, 80's, synthesizers, reminds me of night.
and the strange thing is me and tyler heard it in wal mart; of all places. i couldnt think of anything better to do than to kiss him, in the middle of the frozen foods section. i must say it was invigorating.

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Dec. 27th, 2006 | 01:57 am

so far nothing
havent found anything to belive in yet but i guess ill keep trying

in the mean time i will continue to read The Stand and be creeped out by every person who sneezes or coughs

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